As coherent as usual

Ohhh yeeaaahhhh, we got Tungsten! :D

That might be all I'll say on the topic, but I figure it'll get understood by the relevant parties.

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So, this weekend. Worked a full day on Friday, then up to the Saville for the leaders' retreat. Figured people'd be there by 17:30, seeing as check-in began at 14:00 and the first session was at 19:00, but no. Got to catch up a bit with a couple of ppl before the rush came though, which was good. Having been informed that no beds were available, I was home at 22:45 and out of the house 07:50 Saturday. GW line to Richmond, Cranbourne line to Central, began walking the wrong way to Elizabeth before asking directions and re-orienting myself toward Exhibition. Got to the Saville at 09:05.

"Korea! Early again," Clay says in greeting.

Hey, what can I say, I'm a natural. Just as the Goodman and... er... 'OldBaldie'. (I sooo don't feel comfortable using that name.) They're very hospitable, I must add.

P&W, took notes through two sessions and wondered what it would be like to work as the speaker's PA. Out of the Saville at noon sharp, hiked myself back down to Central and took the Pakenham line to Oakleigh. Connex is my best friend.

Turned myself around a couple of times, but eventually made it to the CNEC HQ - 13:00 sharp. Reviewed China material/notes, learned dramas (how much of an actress is Mel?! And Rushan! Like I said, missions bring out the most unexpected facets of people... honestly, I'd never have picked it), rehearsed Choices (much as I'm still enjoying this play, I'm beginning to think that's not a very appropriate name for it), and was on my way home at 16:20. Hit home, conducted various feminine preparations for a cocktail-style 21st, and made CLC 18:00 to the second.

Jumped the back of a pew to link up with the other China-goers, then there was P&W, received prayer for the mission, announcements etc. and I made a graceful exit during greeting time. Totally missed Jak, but it's about time he gets to be the one who sees and is not seen. Home again, and actually lingered for the first time since Wednesday while the Sister made her final preparations. Meandered upstairs and sprayed J'adore because I don't believe in the everlasting significance of gifts as love. Some will be for sure, but if it's over, it's over ain't it? Regardless, you should never throw away expensive gifts, especially when they make you look (or smell) pretty.

Guess which bit of that was facetious.

Ok, so we're out of the house as 19:10, immersed in the festivities at 19:25, and (leaving out an extended description of the birthday girl - stunning, the people - plentiful, and the surroundings - highly decorated) was home again 23:40.

I'm exhausted.

For all the appointments and constant activity and buzz of socialisation though, I miss... people. I miss Michelle, but hope to rectify that Monday. I miss Jo, and she was there all night. Heck, it was her 21st! Btw, Big W has a girlfriend now, one he picked up in a club. Groovy places, clubs. Oh, did I tell you? Took a couple of hours off to meet up with QuickSilver Thursday - he's got a girlfriend too. Question for you now - what is the deal with guys who've chased after a girl for forever, then wind up with a completely different person who just happens to have the same name? Just bizarre. Anyway, my interaction with QuickSilver is another story entirely, but yes, I realise I still owe the Shaman one, so I'll have to backlog.

I miss Tungsten. I miss the opportunity to finish conversations with Pack Leader. His humour just grates sometimes, but seemeth to me that in all key areas, he's solid. On the testimony of two or three witnesses let the truth be established. I miss Jak. I miss someone I've never met.

The best part of the social interaction tonight was seeing Gidz and Sue-Ling again. I tell you true, it's not about what you're wearing. Sue might just be one of the most beautiful people I've ever met.

The only people who greet me in ACF nowadays are Kelli and Aloysius, and tonight, that privilege fell solely on the latter. He's an interesting one, to be sure. I just can't be sure what he's getting at.

Traitorous thought - I wanted to be with my CLC family.

NATeO, this late at night I have no wisdom to offer, only maybe an observation. If it helps, one day I'll tell you what it was like for me, but from what I gather from your blogging now... you know, I can't tell any of that from the exterior. Some people radiate that kind of hurt - Pack Leader for instance, and I know there have been moments when its leaked out of me... in front of Takyn for one, and horror or horrors I know without a doubt that he looked straight into me then and knew from whence it came, but for you, NATeO? I can't pick it very easily. Maybe you mask well. I reckon that's what I looked like myself majority of the time, which is why events (in my healing journey) progressed as they did.

Still, very proud of the fact that you ate at Star by yourself. Good stuff. :)

I'm going to China and I haven't prepared teaching material - in fact, only clarified today which stack of notes we're actually referring to.

Father... I'm so tired.

Going to CLC tomorrow, 11:15. Hope someone will be there. If anyone shows up, I'll be around after service for a bit, but gotta be home by 14:00. Better sms Jak as well, and make sure he doesn't turn up expecting something he won't get.

I can't type straight, I'm going to bed.


>> Korea.